Outcast

Woke up in the cell, where am I at?Yeah, it's cold, but I like thatWhat am I, trapped?Heart's beating out of my chestDoor's locked, but the keys are in my handsHm, yeah, that's weird, it doesn't make sense, does it?I make songs, I don't make friends, judge meMight smile, but it ain't that funnySing along to the pain, they love itLife's like a merry-go-roundAnd I'm still tryna figure it outI like space, I don't fit in the crowdsMy whole life I've been airin' it outOh, I'm gettin' into character nowFeels wrong, but it feels rightMy feelings seal tight real niceBut I will fight anything to winBut I'm not Mike Tyson, I won't bite ya'But I will tell you if I don't like youI am not the normI got my own shoes, I ain't tryna fit in yoursI never been married, but I've felt divorced*Hi, I'm Nate, have we met before?*Somebody told you I was wack? Check the sourceSomebody told you I was back? Yes, of courseYou got a problem with the fans? There's the doorYou lookin' for the old me? Check the morgue, agh!Not a fortune-teller, but I can see into the future betterAin't no tellin' what'll happen when I pick up the microphone, get the fans togetherSame style, but the songs are betterBeen a year and a half, feels like it's gone foreverAin't no drink in my hand, but you know the buzz is comin'Big steps in the game, yeah, the Hulk is runningMy thoughts are funny, it feels like I'm onto something, yeahI'm high off the music, my head's in the cloudsI kinda like it up here, I am not comin' downI'd rather be alone, I am not good in crowdsWhich is kinda confusin', I've no been that way since a childThey laughin', they tell me I'll never get outI'm just tryna be me, I am nobody elseI don't care what you think, I'm just bein' myselfSo I guess for nowI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI guess I'll be the outcastYeah, I guess I don't fit the mold of rap'Cause I'm respectin' women"I heard your record, I was laughin at it"Maybe they would like me more if I got a little graphic with itNah, I don't wanna blend in with you little rappin' idiots,I'd rather be the outcastI ain't never puttin' out trashI take a hundred and staple it right to my tongueI always put the money where my mouth's at, ah!Feels good to be here nowI'm a weird person with a weird crowdWhat, you don't like that?That's cool, that's great, that's fine, okay, you can leave nowGot a weird smile, but I like it thoughI paint it on me and I'm walkin' to the microphoneAnd put the caution tape around me like I did in Intro I, yeah!Yeah, they got me reminiscin' now!Yeah, you done know I'm 'bout to go madNever wanted something so badGoosebumps through the whole trackAin't no way I'm gonna hold backGot me thinkin' that I'm cookin' in a meth labI don't blow it up in front of my own eyesYou look a little lost, you ain't get that?Comin' from a town where nobody hears a rap like thisI never get the memo, must've missed thatWow!Here I go in my feelings again, I can feel it againSo I lay in my bed, in my cell with the penAnd I dwell on my sins, I keep wonderin' whenTime to open the the doors, they don't know who I amBut I pick up the keys and I put on my TimbsAnd I stare at the locks and the tat on my skinAnd I think to myself, "I don't wanna fit in"I'm high off the music, my head's in the cloudsI kinda like it up here, I am not comin' downI'd rather be alone, I am not good in crowdsWhich is kinda confusin', I've no been that way since a childThey laughin', they tell me I'll never get outI'm just tryna be me, I am nobody elseI don't care what you think, I'm just bein' myselfSo I guess for nowYeah, I'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI guess I'll be the outcastYeah, tryna focusTake a knife to my head then I cut it openTake my brain, put it on the floor tryna figure out my motivesY'all thought I was an issue when the door was lockedNah, you should see me when the door opensEvery night I can hear voicesPut a camera in my face, might turn Joker like I'm Mike PosnerAlways been a little complexDifficult to processSome of y'all wanna sit around and try to pick apart my barsHere's some lines you could dissect:If I'ma die, I'ma die givin' everything that I haveTake a deep breath, I don't need y'all's respectI'm a reject kid at recess playin' games with his make-believe friendsYeah, I don't ever take a night offLights off in the room and I write songsI might fall into my thoughts once in a while when the mic's offYou ain't ever seen no drive like mine, better hop outta my carI'm about to unlock my doorsYou ain't got a seat belt on, better find oneGettin' sick of people tellin' me to smile moreT.S. was a chapter I'll never forget, it was therapy for meBut it's time to turn the page nowHey, shut up! I'm tryna tell 'em my story!I'm sorry, I wasn't yellin' at y'all, I was talkin' to the voicesI rip out the drums of the industry's earsFor tryin' to ignore me and playin' while singin' this chorusI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI guess I'll be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI'll just be the outcastI guess I'll be the outcast